R.I.P

R.I.P Brandon You will forever be in our hearts, and will never be forgotten.
Gone too Soon........Gone too Soon.

From the past

Have you ever been with someone for a while and when things end he's all you still think about.? Even though it was mainly my fault the relationship came to an end. Anyways, back to the point. So there's this boy from the past that i haven't spoke to in a while, and i have a boyfriend i really care for at the moment. Last night the boy from the past gave me a call at around 2:00 in the morning. We got the talking about so many old iish, and at that moment all feelings came rushing back, i didn't want it to but it did. We said how we really missed each other and such things. He said he could never get over the fact that what i did to him was ohdee grimey, but yet he still thinks about me. We talked on the phone until we both fell asleep. To be honest he was last the person i thought would ever call me. What im really really trying to say is that sometimes things that are left in the past sometimes come back to the future, like it was meant to be. But on the other hand you don't want it to ruin the new foundation you have at the moment. It now left me n a very hard place but i kinda like the place im in cause it makes me realize a few things about what once had and what i have now.

Wondering

Im starting to wonder why is it that everyone around me is changing. At first i thought Hey, maybe its for the better but i soon came to find out that there is no good to the change that they have become. Don't get me wrong a change is always needed but there is a limit one can take. If you're gonna change, change the negative things about yourself to positive instead if the opposite way around. Smh its just getting annoying now. Another thing i am starting to wonder about is how people can lie DIRECTLY to your face and think you don't have the slightest ideal that they are telling a BOLD FACE lie. Me, i'm the type of person that finds everything out and will keep it to myself until you decide to tell me the truth. I will let the pain and agony eat away at me just to keep what i have happy. To this day i'm wondering why i am like this. Will people think i'm a pushover? Yes.! i can actually answer that truthfully. I could have have seen you steal some candy from the store, and if i come up to you and ask about it, and you lie straight to my face (i dont mean the regular lies, i mean the look you in the eye kinda lie) i will pretend as if nothing ever happened.
Sometimes i think i should stop wondering and actually DO.